Day 3 Personal Renewal Process
This is called my personal renewal.
Date: 4/19/2008 8:15:10 AM ( 15 y ) ... viewed 1737 times
"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear ... "
1 John 4:18
I woke up this morning absolutely HUNGRY. That's all I could think about as I rolled out of bed, in fact, I'm quite sure that waking up on a Saturday morning at 0700 was prompted by feelings of hunger!
So it has been difficult over the past few days to wrap my head around "this" idea. When I think of fasting, I think of deprivation. Society labels people who do this and I'm automatically prompted towards associating the word with negative connotations. So, I have to change my vocabulary....for me this is no longer the act of fasting, it is now the process of "personal renewal". So that whenever I need to refer to fasting I'll use personal renewal instead....It will make me think much differently about what I am doing here.
Anyway, its hard to see myself progressing when I look the same, and for the most part feel the same. I think of diets that I've done in the past where I've been perfect into my 4th week and then seeing such insignificant results prompted me to give up. I had faith but nothing materialized. What is the point of working so much harder and sacrificing so much more than everyone else, to just look and feel like everyone else? Doesn't make sense.
Yet this morning I silently prayed for strength and courage as things are only going to get harder in the next little while. The resistence from all sides is going to be evident. And, I've acknowledged that the only way for me to make it through is for God to strengthen me in this course
I keep thinking that if I could only continue to believe that the result I want will happen in the span of this personal renewal, it will. It will...
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