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Day Fourteen-Finally! A Pretty Good Day 18 y
I feel more hope today than I have in a long time.
I have been thinking about shutting down this blog because so much of my journaling seems so negative. But, finally, I can report a pretty good day. I still have considerable pain, but with a couple of Ibuprofen I can deal with it, yesterday, even the mildly narcotic Ultram did not touch the pain. I went to therapy this morning for a two hour session of diathermy, ultrasound and electro-acupuncture. It all went well, but the doctor warned me to continue to take it easy, rest, do neck stretches and take minerals. So, I’m still on medical leave for now.
After therapy I had to stop at Walm ... read more Day Thirteen 18 y
Its been nearly two weeks since I started this journal. I had really hoped that by this time I'd be making glowing reports about feeling less pain and beginning to walk on my own.
Its been nearly two weeks since I started this journal. I had really hoped that by this time I’d be making glowing reports about feeling less pain and beginning to walk on my own. Today, the opposite is true. I woke up in excruciating pain this morning and it has not abated at all. My walking is very bad and I must lean on the cane all hunched over to keep my balance. I admit I have thought about throwing in the towel and a calling a surgeon for evaluation, but for now it still seems wrong. Its hard to explain, but every time I give serious thought to surgery it like my whole being screams ... read more Day Twelve 18 y
Except for sticking to the diet I've pretty much taken it easy today.
Not much to report today. Except for sticking to the diet I’ve pretty much taken it easy today. We have had storms off and on and as I write there is a line of storms in Oklahoma getting ready to move into Arkansas. I am not afraid of storms, but large hail took my roof off a few years ago, I sure don’t need a repeat of that. The biggest problem for me is the intense pain that nothing will touch.
I have a batch of water distilling and hope the storms hold off until its done. Other than that, its all in God’s hands, although I’m praying for the safety of all of us in this area. They are ... read more Day Eleven 18 y
Stormy days can lead to joint pain, but I'm working on diet and positve affirmations in an effort to heal the whole person.
I awoke to a thunderstorm this morning and since that usually means more than the usual pain, I decided to stay in bed and sleep late. In that drowsy time between wakefulness and sleep I repeated some affirmations and tried to meditate. When I finally got up I worked some more on personal affirmations, but hit a snag on self-esteem. How odd it was trying to write that I am worthy of respect, health and prosperity when this nasty little voice kept saying ”no you’re not”. Its time to put that voice to rest, I’ve heard it most of my life and believed it. Now, I know it was always a lie, but i ... read more Day Ten 18 y
Trying to discover the emotional and spiritual issues behind my physical problem.
Today has had its shares of ups and downs. Last night was terrible with excruciating pain that lasted for over ten hours. I did not get to sleep until early this morning. The morning was not too bad, I was weak and had trouble even standing at first. Later, I used the walker and made it to the mailbox. The entire trip was only a few hundred feet, but that is the longest distance I’ve walked in almost a month. I stayed outside and cleaned up some trash the puppies scattered and later own cleaned out my car that I’ve nicknamed ”pigpen on wheels”. My doctor is kind enough to go get the car an ... read more Day Nine 18 y
Bad days do come, but with hope and prayer, better days will follow.
First of all I want to thank all of you who responded with sympathy and encouragement to yesterday’s post, either by posting a response or by E-mail. Yesterday was rough, especially the night. The pain was really intense, almost unbearable and my knee was starting to draw again. I was in such agony and tossed and turned so much, the puppies refused to sleep with me (which will probably be a good thing as tick season is approaching).
I have just returned from therapy and am feeling a little better. I had to wait my turn and Doc. came out into the waiting room and stuck some needles in me, ... read more Day Eight 18 y
Its days like this that make me doubt whether or not I'm doing the right thing.
Its days like this that make me doubt whether or not I’m doing the right thing. Pain, weakness, discouragement. This will be short because I have little positive to say right now. I wish I had someone to talk to who believed in me. Just one person to talk to would mean so much, but most of the people I thought were friends think I’m stupid. The loneliness is almost as bad as the pain. visit the page Day Seven 18 y
Its already been a week since I decided against surgery....
Can it already be a week since I made the tearful decisions to go against all the wisdom and common sense of friends who were threatening to drag me off to a surgeon?
I wish I could say I’ve experienced a healing miracle and am back to normal, but no, I am just getting started. I feel a little stronger today and took a few draggy steps without the walker, but holding on to something to stay upright. I had an extra long therapy session with diathermy, electro-acupuncture and a short session of ultrasound.
Things are getting better, although the pain is pretty intense right now. I am sti ... read more Day Six 18 y
Traditional medicine might treat the symptoms of dis-ease and bring a measure of comfort, but if we are not seen, treated, and accepted as a whole complex being, then what some see as a cure is only a band-aid.
The sixth day since I resolved to do everything possible to avoid steroids and surgery has come and gone. All in all its not been a bad day. There have been no sudden healing, no great changes for either better or worse. I’m getting some extra water distilled since violent storms are predicted this weekend. I find I can’t stand the taste of anything but home distilled water now. I’m taking minerals and vitamins recommended by my doctor, using anti-inflammatory herbs and eating a 80-90% raw diet, so I’m not worried about the lack of minerals in the water. When I’m better I might start remin ... read more Day Five-Storms Without and Within 18 y
I'll be so happy when this is over; I pray that it will soon be over.
Nothing new to report today really. Woke up and wound up in tears of pain and frustration as soon as I got out of bed to let the puppies out. There is a forecast of bad storms today, Oklahoma is already under the gun and we are under a tornado watch. The low pressure system that creates such unstable weather also creates pain in a lot of people.My chiropractor says its because out bodies are like barometers. When the pressure outside drops suddenly, the pressure in our bodies remains high. Damaged joints, broken bones, and other places where there is scar tissue or inflammation tend to bec ... read more Day Four-Not A Good Day 18 y
Yes, all in all not a good day; but now its time to start looking up and forward to better days.
Yesterday I had a pretty good day, I felt stronger and more alive than I had in a long time. About 5:30 in the evening things began to go downhill. I woke up this morning after a night filled with a lot of discomfort and little sleep to a less than ideal day. The first hurdle was oversleeping, I woke up just twenty minutes before it was time to leave for my therapy appointment. I pulled on the nearest clothes I could find, brushed my hair and put on my shoes all without leaving the bed. (I have a very small house). When it did become necessary to get up, I found that I couldn’t do it. My l ... read more Day Three 18 y
I am finally able to start my raw diet...
Not much to report today so far. Still having pain and weakness. I did manage to go to the grocery store and get some good raw fruits and veggies. I used a wheelchair for shopping and had to ask for help a few times, but all went well. For lunch I had some raw broccoli and carrots dipped in a tangy dressing I made from extra virgin olive oil and raw apple cider vinegar with a touch of raw honey and sea salt. It was so good. For dessert I had a few grapes and some frozen blueberries (can’t afford the fresh ones). Now, I just need to keep up the good habits and not fall back into emotional b ... read more Well Intentioned Ignorance 18 y
People often have the best of intentions, but how little so many of them know...
I am trying so hard to be healed by natural means, in other words, I want to care for my body so it will heal itself. Rest, good diet, gentle stretching, proper therapy and prayer; the formula for self healing sounds pretty easy, but its not. One of the worst obstacles I have faced is the well intentioned ignorance of the average American.
1. Diet-A very lovely and generous person offered to buy me some groceries and I accepted her offer. She wanted to buy basic staples like milk, sugar, and flour,. I thanked her and explained that I was on a very strict diet for inflammation. What I n ... read more What Happened? 18 y
"Mommy, why does that lady walk funny?" "Sweetie, What's Wrong With You?" "Hey _____, what happened to you?"
”Mommy, why does that lady walk funny?” ”Sweetie, What’s Wrong With You?” ”Hey _____, what happened to you?”
Every time I go out in public I get stares and questions. Its not so bad in my nearby small town where there are few secrets, but I work in the city where hardly anyone knows me. So folks-here’s what happened, and why I walk funny.
I have had problems with my neck and lower back for about four years off and on. I had eighteen months when I felt so well and was able to be active and I considered myself cured. In July of 2005 I fell, I was walking down a hill with a gallon of di ... read more day two 18 y
My "frozen" knee has loosened up, but I still have not gotten what I need to begin my raw diet.
Day two begins with good news. For a couple of weeks now my left knee has been frozen frozen at an almost 90 degree angle. It was only with the greatest effort and pain I could move it enough to be able to stand and more or less drag the leg while using a walker. Very early this morning the knee began to loosen up, I still can’t get it completely straight, but its more like a 30 degree angle. I can move that leg a little which makes walking a little easier. Sadly, I still can’t put any weight on it or get any sense of balance. At therapy today the doctor was very pleased and said he is see ... read more A Bit Of History 18 y
How I got to where I am
Now for a little background. About ten years ago I started having these mysterious pains in my knees and lower legs. I asked my then Medical Doctor about it and he told me I was old and fat and on my feet all day, of course my legs would hurt. I accepted this as my lot in life for being old (about 43), fat and on my feet. A few years later my wrists began to hurt and my hands go numb. The doctor said it was probably carpal tunnel and might need surgery. I told him my legs were hurting. I was less fat by then, but older and still on my feet most of the day, he didn’t say anything much, just ... read more day one 18 y
Oh God! Oh God! Oh God it hurts, Oh God help me. This was my cry yesterday and most of the last few weeks as I ...
Oh God! Oh God! Oh God it hurts, Oh God help me. This was my cry yesterday and most of the last few weeks as I struggled to walk from one end of my house to the other. I was in constant pain, excruciating pain. I had to use a walker or at least a cane just to get around. My left knee is frozen at a ninety degree angle and I cannot straighten it. I walk hunched over so both feet can touch the floor, its agony. From my lower back to the ankle of left leg flows a constantly changing pain, cramps, deep aches, pulsating jabs. All this due to a spinal injury. Most of my friends, co-worke ... read more |