I read your post. I'm really sorry that you feel this way. I can empathize with you on so many levels. I too are experiencing an overwhelming dissatisfaction with my life. What I do know is that there is hope. I truly believe that with fasting for a length of time you can free yourself of these negative feeling and emotions that cause you to feel sad and to live a life of mediocrity.

Anyway, I'm fasting as well. Today is my second day. I know that I can't do a fast of water and teas and vegetebles as you are doing, I'm just not strong enough. I know that I can do juices because I enjoy them. For me the hardest part of the fast has been day four. Once you make it past that day, things get easier. By days 8-10 you don't even miss food! You can look at a cherry cheesecake (my fav!) and want it mentally but have no desire to physically injest it. Its so amazing how the mind adapts!

Anyway, I'll definitely be watching over your blog. Feel free to email me or check mine out as well. Don't give up, life can be better! :)