Dear Rudenski,
I believe you. What a beautiful post. I personally have never had a paranormal experience aside from the occasional "feeling" or "voice" inside me telling me something was going to happen that I couldn't have possibly known. I am so far removed from what you have experienced. When people ask me if I believe in God, I say no, I don't "believe" in God. I KNOW there is a God. How do I know? I don't understand how I know. It's a knowing inside of me that I cannot explain. As for you, when I read your words, I don't believe they could have come from an illusion. They are too beautiful. They make perfect sense to me.