YES! that is what it was like. i finally did have the courage to go outside and experience all the waving foliage that seared my spirit in the most quiet way
i am glad i did. i felt like i was floating through a mirage. i was stunned how i hadn't noticed certain things before.. but it was more like a feeling that melded into me. it almost broke my heart... but it didn't.. it was the same back yard that i had for the longest time... but it was beckoning to me and was infused with a silky cool ness.. the air, i mean... its true, maybe, that i am more afraid of the light than i am of the darkness... it was like, i had to take a deep breathe first and brace myself before i could handle all that intensity... but wow.. i'm glad i did...