Re: --"why"--

Thanks Moreless...I read the description at the top and was sorry to hear about your son...it must have been so hard to go through that. But it is like you say, so much learning and positive experience has also come from that. I have had health problems since the age of 15, though they became much worse since having my son 5 years ago. I wanted him at home and with out drugs...I want two weeks over and the doctors put so much pressure on me to go in hospital that I gave up and went. What followed was a 40 hour labour, where I was pressurised the whole way into intervention and drugs...some of which I didn't even agree to and didn't realise I had until I made them give me a full copy of my medical notes after. I ended up with an emergency C-section and they had to put the epidural in my spine three times and it didn't work and then a spinal block. They had me on a antibiotic drip for hours and a morphine drip for days after...when I look at pictures of my self after my son was just born I look like I was dieing...My body and face were so bloated. I then got an infection and they didn't realise and I didn't realise because I thought it was just the pain of the C-section and then because it was so bad I was on antibiotics again for weeks. My son is my only child I was 37 when I had him and I had wait for him for years, what should have been the most beautiful experience turned into something resembling a horror movie. It has taken me years to think or talk about it with out getting really upset.

I didn't mean to write all this but I just found myself doing it...I think that it was when I read your story about your son and you said that when he came home you could tell that he was so acidic. I am just being to think in these term...I think about those pictures of me in the hospital and I always think that I look toxic, which I was...though I probably was also really acidic...maybe its the same thing.

Anyway Moreless I am glad that your son is recovering his health....thank you for sharing your story...Best Thoughts Moonie