Determinism is no a pretty dress my dear! I've also been through multitudes of protocol but am not about to give up! I find the Science of keeping our bodies balanced helpful and very credible, a Science that the establishment placed a gag order apon that began a century and a half ago compatable to many of the alternative protocol and often the deciding factor in making them work properly!
But it is your decision to throw your hands up in their air in defeat ,myself I chose not to!