Am i mia???

This is a stupid question but im just looking for advice...Basically i've been purging for a few months now, i will purge sometimes twice a day and this will go on for about two weeks, nearly every day but not always, then i wont bother purging sometimes even if i binge! Also when i purge i dont freak out if i dont get everything up, i will however freak out if i dont get anything up and usually self harm because of it.
I just love the high that i get from purging, i dont understand why tho!
I dont think im mia (sorry for short hand, cant say the proper word let alone type it)
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