Re: Crazy in Love- Help!!!
"Im dangerously in love for this guy and got it bad to the point where its hard to sorta walk away."
Dangerous, is right. What, precisely, is it that you "love" about this person? Do you love that he gives you attention (at his convenience, of course)? Do you love that he will compliment you (again, if it suits him)? Do you love the drama/trauma that he's cooking up for you by "allowing" you to see what he's up to, online? Do you love what you believed to be "real" from this guy and it's turning out that his great qualities have suddenly vanished?
Stop for a second and think: you are very young, yet, and you have spent three years of your young life dancing around with this guy. You probably have another 80 years of living to do and a relationship that is built on deceit, abuse, disrespect, and control will not last, even if the people involved spend the rest of their lives together - the RELATIONSHIP decays, and quickly.
I don't care what this guy had promised me, I would pack my stuff, snap my fingers, and run like my butt was on fire. There's too many people out there to settle on one jackass who is intent upon hurting me. "In love" translates to "In heat," plain and simple. There is no basis of trust, respect, honesty, integrity, encouragement, or support, here.
I would take the time, while I was still young, to finish my education, secure a good job, become a self-assured and independent woman, and, when I would be least expecting it, a partner would enter my Life that fit me like a comfortable, old shoe.
Best wishes to you - you'll be just fine.