Need dietary sponsor/buddy in return for same

I am severely ill and dying of several illnesses. I have been vegan for a long time and want to go raw. As a matter of fact, the only thing I can eat healthfully is unheated barley grass juice powder - but, to the detriment of my health, finances, and relationships with an ex-friend and my mother, I keep bingeing on cooked vegan food that I am seriously allergic to. I must implement this strict dietary of green drink or I will die, and very messily and shamefully. Is there any fellow vegan out there battling with some sort of addiction who needs personal support in recovery, and could provide the same? I would be very good at keeping you on your health track and I desperately need the same. Please email if interested - thank you. Tweet