There is evidence that people and civilizations of people have been attracted to the sun as far back as 6000 to 8000 B.C. and ealier. At least in this respect, you have a lot of company. This may be one of most natural and instinctive characteristics to be found among living beings born on earth.
If you are at least open to consider the following info, this may help with the kidn of insight you are seeking. You'll need to watch at least until the 4 to 5 minute point of the first a/v. That is when the astrologic interpretations begin in ernest, with various references to the sun throught.