New to forum, Ana, looking for support

Hi everyone, my name is Lucy and I'm 19 years old and I have been fighting with Anorexia since I was 15. My lowest weight was 96 lbs. I have been recovering for more than a year and my weight is at 123 lbs but not stable. I am so afraid now because I really fear I am relapsing full swing. I am going on a 2 week vacation with my family and am on a vacation diet which I know is dangerous, but I can't help it. I need the emotional support my eating disorder provides me with. I am very quiet about my diet habits because I don't want my family to worry or bother me about it.

I've come here hoping for support and friendships. I talk about my weight and food a lot, but I'm sure you all do the same thing. My vacation starts in 2 months and that puts a lot of pressure on me. I don't know why I can't just be happy now. My weight is in the healthy category, but I feel so fat. I can't stand it.

Anyway, hope to chat with you all soon. Lucy Tweet