Re: my brother committed suicide
Hello 18637,
Sorry I didn't notice your message before. You hit it right on the nose about the irony. If we really were sinister and uncaring, we would not be depressed and just go through life with indifference (like you said "callous") and not truly have respect for anything. Since it wouldn't do me any good to have regrets, I simply focus on the fact that now I can make my life better because I've learned from the past and can truly understand other people's pains and sorrows.
I don't mean to prosletyze with what I'm about to say, but I believe that the creator explains to us how to have a happy life and understand ourselves. His name forever (in all situations) is "I am who I am", Exodus 3:14). Since we are His offspring, we need to know who we are and develop an identity. There are many other things in scripture that society has found inconvenient to understand properly simply because most of society really doesn't want to understand other people's pains and sorrows. I've been a Christian for twenty years, but in the past year, I've learned TREMENDOUSLY (no exagerration) about what is not taught about the creator, and the one reason I've been able to understand better is because I can understand pains and sorrows (John 7:38, "...rivers of living waters"). God even tells us that we should turn our laughter to tears (James 4:9).
Of course you'll be careful not to complement yourself (humility is the requirement and maintenance of wisdom), and don't value other people's compliments either, because whenever you accept a compliment from someone else, you will be surrendering part of your humility and independence.
So, it has been UNDERSTOOD as a curse (it would be crazy for us to think of it now as a mixed blessing, ?maybe?), but I think the
Depression also offers a certain insight that is available to us with genuine humility and conscience (irony, huh?), the two missing parts of Christianity.