Re: My heart is empty!

Well, the thing is, we were having some problems, and I want to have children. Not knowing if he is sterile, we would argue about it over and over again. Every time I wanted to talk to him about my feelings, it almost seemed as if he didn't want to listen. This has been going on for some time now. He never likes to cuddle, or make love. It really hurts that he doesn't look at me the way he should. He loved me and showed me sometimes that he did, but not enough. I felt invisible. There were so many times I tried talking to him about these things, and he blew up in my face. I always wanted to get married in a church, but he didn't care and told me it was pointless. If he had feelings of his own, he would hold them in until he couldn't take anymore, and he would scream and yell at me about it. He is a really wonderful guy with a big heart, but I have gone astray. I have found someone who fills in all the gaps which are missing in my marriage. I have been seeing him now for 2 months, and we are in love, but I still love my husband. My husband knows that I am cheating although I refuse to admit it, in fear of losing him forever. He wants me out of the house immediately, but I can't bear to live without him. In the same respect, I don't want to hurt the man I am seeing. He loves me so much. What do I do??? Thank you for listening and being a friend! God bless your heart! Tweet