MH-I want to change my ways.

Ok, so basically im really passionate for wanting to be healthy and free of disease. Everyone around me knows it. Around here, Its easy for me to say I am quite the odd ball. I am grateful for being odd. Living in this urban city, I want to be one with nature. But the reality is, I was given this world; i didnt make it. I want to eat human food, but I look in the fridge and I see cheese, bread, soda, kool-aid, chips, and vegetables that have been sitting there for days. I was thinking about growing my own veggies or whatever, but now im just thinking about growing wheatgrass. I must say, I hate feeling hungry. Im not even sure if it is "hunger" since their is no pain from the small ulcers (the ones you mention in yoru booklet) in my stomach; I guess i could just call it cravings. once I start, my mouth turns into a black hole. There is no satisfying it. I am 19 years old, and have already done 3 liver flushes, had a colonic, have purchased my own enema and am practicing the art of giving my own; have been sun gazing whenever the sun is out. In about 2-3 weeks (took this long cuz new england weather sucks) I have been able to look at the sun for more then 2-3 mins, easily. Whats the most one should sun gaze? i also became vegetarian. Should I only grow wheatgrass, as this is the only real human food I would need. Any other things you could suggest I grow. Do you think its possible for me to live by natures laws even though I live in the city. Or was this privelage taken away as soon as i was born? Am i just another average human being doomed to their societys way of life? What can I do for myself? Once i figure this out, i will know what i can do for the people around me. My passion for healing is so much, that I get angry looking at people eat dead food. It eats at me everyday. I want to save the world! But it seems so hard just to save myself. Something inside me is hurting, (not physically) and I want it to stop.

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