Day 12 of 30+

Today is a much better day! Apple juice to start, then carrot/celery/apple, and working on another apple. I have almost used up the organic apples, which is good because they are going soft... This week it's romaine and pears on sale in the tiny organic corner of the local market. I can't wait to have some pear juice!

I am down another 1/2 pound. It's slowing down earlier than usual, but it's still coming off. I bought some ketone testing strips, and I'm testing at the darkest level. I guess this means I'm really burning fat! My measurements are dropping, and I'm going to keep going. Sometimes I feel like I can't make it another 3-5 weeks without eating. But then I remember that if I give up now, I'll work my way back to the old habits. And I won't get to my goals. I need this time to work out my relationship with food.

Hubby and I were talking about hunger, taste, and food portions. I typically base how much I eat on how good it is... not on how hungry I am. This is definitely a problem, because I'm a pretty good cook. So, one of my goals is to rewire my brain to equate food as energy. I don't need to be carrying around a bunch of extra batteries with stored energy (fat) because there is always plenty of food around. I need to use up my energy reserves, and then only plug into an outlet when I NEED fuel, not whenever I have access to it. I can picture myself as a toaster running around and plugging into every outlet in the house, just because they are there. Instead, I want to only plug in when my reserves are running low, and unplug when I'm recharged. Silly analogy, but it's working for now. I've got at least a month before I'll really be eating again, so I've got plenty of time to get a grip on my eating habits....

Rhonda