Failure at starting!

People help me!!!

For the past two weeks, I have been attempting to start. I do well for most of the day, trying to keep busy, but once I arrive home.....I binge. My mind stops working and my body takes control. I find some little excuse like, "I don't want bad breath or Body Odor !", or my mother nagging me about eating. It'd be so much easier if I was back in my own house in California, but I am stuck here with my family for a few months.

My self-esteem is shot. I've been home for a month now and gained 13 pounds!!!! I was never skinny, but was content with my weight. Now..crap..I don't even want to go out and been seen in public!

I really need help.

I've been considering going on a fasting retreat in Hawai'i. Yes, it's expensive, but perhaps that is what I need!