I feel if you are not ready to recover you shouldnt go through with it,save money recovery is very expesnsive. i strongly believe fasting can help break habits. Lax abuse is rough on the system and i am sure you are aware of it, fasting can help heal your body inside and out . when you dont take them you are probaly retaining water and is why you feel bloated . just try to drink a lot of water or something that rehydrated you because when you take lax's they dehydrate you. I would love to talk to you because my sister is ana. Maybe she can talk to you.