I can totally realate, girl.

Hey Harmony,

I feel like I have so much in common with your story. =o)

I am also 37 (38 next month) and have gone through lots of ups and downs with weight over the years. Seems like when life is going well, I slim down; but then when I'm unhappy I put it back on plus some more. Got to figure out how not to do that anymore.

I was athletic and fit all through high school but then started the battle with emotional eating once I hit college... Fell into a relationship w/ a controlling jerk in my early 20's - gained weight. Saw the light and dumped his sorry ass in my late 20's - lost weight. Met the love of my life and got engaged a few years later - lost even more weight. Stupid boy got back w/ his ex and ditched me - gained weight. Started running seriously and completed several marathons - lost weight. Moved to San Francisco and met a very cute 23 year old - lost even more weight. Moved in with said 23 year old and relationship went downhill - gained weight.

I have been single now for a little over a year. I have taken that time to reconnect with life and to figure out who I am again. Toward the end of my last realtionship, I thought that I was depressed because of the weight. But now I realize that, that wasn't it because I am still fat but I am so much happier and more at peace now.

So... it is time to handle this monkey on my back once and for all.

I am 5'9" and started out at 205 lbs! After 12 days on the Master-Cleanse I have lost 20 of the 65 I want to take off! Yippee! I plan to go for 35 days this time and then to do another 35 days in August. I am also using this fasting time to really think about my food choices and how I am going to change my eating habits once I am on solid food again. I am also easing back into running and have started doing pilates.

My sister is getting married in Kaui Sept 17th and I want to look GORGEOUS for the wedding. No more fat pictures that I am embarrassed to show anyone. And as an added incentive, I know that there will be a passle of her fiance's HOT water polo buddies in attendance at the wedding. GRRRRRRR!

Sorry for the long post, I think that I had al lot to get off my chest.

Thanks to every one for all your stories, advice, and support.

This board keeps me going when I want to quit.

YAY us! We're taking the steps to acheie our goals!

Ellen