I give up

I'm almost to the point of crying. I wipe , I wash, I powder, I smell check, I do cleansing enemas, drink acv, drink chlorophyll, wipe with chlorophyll, take a multivitamin, exercise, drink water(not as muchas I should, but yee gods)

It's still there. I don't smell it, but apparently its still there because my co-workers are circling like vultures and making nasty comments involving references to poo. I don't know what else to do.
Am I not wiping thoroughly enough?
Am I not wiping for long enough?

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I've been using my finger for smell checks...and it seems clean. The I dry and powder. So far so good...but no...It's still there. I can't come clean. What's wrong with me? I think about what I'm going through and I feel so hopeless...like there's something wrong with me that I don't get it...something so simple as ass hygeine. But is it that simple?

I'm not suicidal..I would never do that, but I'm getting tired of myself and my situation. What will I do when my son is old enough to notice? He'll hate me for it. And I can't hide in the house forever...wincing everytime someone passes...or references poo.

I need help guys. I don't know what to do.