Scared to lose virginity.

Hey guys and girls, first post and it's nice to be here.

I'm a 20 year old male, virgin, currently with a girlfriend of about 5 weeks. My girlfirend is 18 years old, and very sexually active and experienced. She has been doing stuff with guys since she was about 13-14 (headjobs, handjobs etc.) and first had sex at 16. I have had other girlfriends over the resent years, which I have had oral sex with and which I have 'fingered'. Myself, I actually haven't blown my load from what a girl has done before. My ex tried to give me a hand job and a blow job, but I couldn't get hard. I am always quite scared when a girl tries to touch me downstairs. I was petrified when I first fingered my ex girlfriend, not knowing what I was doing, but after afew times, I really enjoyed fingering her and giving her oral sex, I think I am just scared at the start, which I think is quite normal (right? ;)) When my ex tried to give me a blow job, I was limp (my penis is quite small when limp, but 6" when hard) and I wouldn't get hard, because she was hurting me (hard to say, ... there was no... moisture down there, she was like a vacuum cleaner, hurt like hell, lol). After afew minutes of me closing my eyes trying to think of p 0 r no movies I had seen to try to get hard, she stopped and angrily asked if I was ever get hard. Embarressed, I replied: "I don't know", and then we stopped and we went to sleep miserably, I never got anything from her again.

I masterbate alot, at least once or twice a day, maybe more, and I have for many years. My new girlfriend is very supportive, wanting me to trust her that she is not going to judge me on my performance when we have sex which is great, but I don't have very good self-confidence, which doesn't help at all. It's just too much, I'm always thinking "what if I can't get hard again?". I am really scared of how experienced she is. I think she's going to expect me to perform at a standard which I just can do, because I've never done it before.

I have stopped masterbation for the time being, hoping that not masterbating will help with my erections. She's very sexy (unlike my ex's which sort of turned me off), and she has big breasts (which I totally love! this is the first g/f I've had which has had big breasts. This is an amazing turn on, as I am a total breast man over anything else), but also I've noticed that she wont let me finger her at all. She says that if I do that, she will want sex straight after and if she can't have that then it's not worth it. This gets me thinking,.. maybe everyone she's mucked around with just hasn't aroused her other then sex? One of my ex's (23 years old, with a kid) told me that I gave her the best orgasm she has ever had,... and I was fingering her! It was great, she was going wild :D~ I really get into fingering chicks, it's a total turn on for me, and that gets me hard, but as soon as we finish, I got soft again, so I've tried that :P

Anyway, what was the point of this post again? Oh yeah, I get scared when she wants to have sex, mostly cos I don't know the steps to do thing. When we do, I will pretty much have to learn getting a hand/headjob, and having sex all in the one night :|

Maybe I should just try to get her to let me finger her? She really doesn't want me to just finger her tho :( I don't know what to do.

Anyway, if anyone was bothered to read the whole thing, thankyou for your time. Please thank me for the laughs you got also :)

Any help is greatly appriciated, I really like this girl and really want to get over my fears, I know I'm going to love sex, I just need to know what to do :|

:)