Bulemia and gallstones...

Today was a big day for me, admitting to myself and my husband that I do have a problem with bulemia. It has been an on/off thing for years now. The past few years I've done really really well. I was up to 250 lbs. I lost 30 lbs on my own (not by throwing up) through excercise and lowfat diet. This caused me to have Gallstones and I lost another 25 because I HAD to eat well or I'd have gallstone attacks. After a while it's like I just had this thought, "Hey I can still eat whatever I want, I'll just throw it up afterward. Then I won't have gallstone attacks." This has been going on daily for a month now. The past few days I've felt really guilty about it. I told my husband tonight and it was very shaming for me. He didn't know how to respond really and I guess I can't be mad at him for that, but he doesn't really understand bulemia as a disease. He thinks I should just make throwing up not an option and I told him it's not that easy. I really don't think I'm doing that bad, not like I need to go to a special hospital or anything, but I think it could be bad if I don't stop. So anyways, I believe I've made a big step and I am turning to God for help but also needed my husbands support and needed to reveal my dirty secret to him. Support is a big thing for me. If you guys could be praying for me I would really appreciate it. Thanks.