You know you are probably right T, latley I have been going over why certain situations in my life keep happening over and over again. And I've come to the conclusion that I chose these situations out of fear. Deep seated fear of living a happy life. and now that I know what I'm doing i'm slowley trying to try to figure out what I need to change and learn about myself. So I guess I need to pay more attention to my subconscious.
Was the knocking you experienced a good thing now looking back on it?