Re: Cleansing

Baths - elimination, washing away the old, cleansing and purifying. Cool dreams! First off, no, you're not twisted or awful for having those dreams!

First dream, those audio cassettes just jump out. all those old "tapes" we play in our heads, the old mental programming that keeps us down. You're smashing and pounding away at those. Wow! Hally, you've really been doing a lot of work on getting rid of those old messages! =)

You're already down in your subconscious, down in the basement, on the steps - the ladder between the subconscious drives and the conscious mind, your emotional side despondenet and sobbing over how your husband, you inner male, has made a mess of things! That old INTJ self, all logical and rational has taken the used kitty (feminine, intuitive, nurturing) litter and emptied it out - into your tub. Tubs indicate a place of cleansing, eliminating the old, washing, purifying. And he took all your used emotions and just dumped them, thinking he was helping, but really just made a mess of things that needed straightening out. Had you previously been trying to logically address your emotions? Just trying to think your way over things and "wasting" your emotional side in the process?

As you, your feminine emotional energy, has been beating on those old tapes, your masculine, rational, energy has cleaned out the tub, gotten rid of your old emotional "waste", and placed new, clean litter down in your basement. Wow, - just WOW!! Oh, excellent!! Your rational mind has come around to helping the emotional and straightend up a lot of your old issues. You've REALLY been doing some emotional cleaning! I'd guess that you've recently accepted the value of listening to you emotions and no longer feel that they're just in the way or wasted energy that could be better focused elsewhere. (?)

Second dream, your almost adult male son is symbolising your intimate inner male - intimate in that he came from you and you can't get more intimate than giving life! I often see one or both of my sons now as my inner male equal. When they were younger, my inner male was always an adult male friend, partner, or my dad.

You've been "washing out" old ideas and thoughts (hair) and now are "conditioning" the thoughts you have. Some of them aren't as wholesome as you think they should be, but they continue to 'stick' around and your male side assures you that there is nothing wrong with them. He's right. ;) Trying to remember, didn't Tracey say you have a lot of Scorpio sexual energy in your chart? I may be thinking of someone else, but I do remember you were INTJ and are now INFJ. Your male side is telling you that there's nothing wrong with your sex drive or your male energy (take your pick!) and that you can use that energy to help straighten out and nourish your thoughts!

The conditioner is a swampy, muddy green. Green indicates healing Mama Earth power, heart chakra energies and the swampy color indicates that you need balance in those areas. Balancing your inner and outer selves, or even more likely in your dream balancing your male and female sides, especially since your inner male climbed right in the tub with you. It also indicates that there may be some issues you have with jealousy or that you feel your male and female energies are rivals, not partners.

You had to reach for something outside the tub, exposing your feminine side to your inner male. Fabulous! You're reaching out, getting past the elimination (tub) of things and bringing in more items to go over, to wash (or wash with) to cleanse and purify. And, your letting your inner male "see" your inner female. That it was upsetting in the dream would seem to indicate that you are still a little troubled by letting your rational, logical side fully see your intuitive, nurturing side. Was it just the breast that was exposed, or your more private parts? I ask only for your own knowledge, you don't have to answer us!! The level of exposure would indicate to you the level of problems you have in the area. Breasts are the nurturing, feeding, nourishing aspects. The more private areas are the deeply intuitive, softer, vulnerable, more sensitive areas which hold the mysteries of life and transcendence.

(Feminine energy is so powerful that patriarchy societies are almost paranoid in their fear of it! There's a lot of truth and wisdom in the saying "the hand that rocks the cradle rules the world.")

Does a part of you still feel that nurturing and tenderness are "weak" or weaker, less powerful, less worthy even? Are you afraid to let down the barriers and let people see your softer, more vulnerable side behind the exterior steel? Do you feel like your masculine and feminine qualites are still battling it out for control instead of being peacefully integrated? Like sometimes you feel like you want to respond one way, but think another is actually safer or "more appropriate"?