Where do I go from here?

Andreas,
About two months ago, my alternative/integrative doctor asked if I wanted to be hospitalized (not hardly!) if we needed to reconsider anti-depressants, (not a chance) did I want to look for a psychiatrist(didn’t think so). He asked this because the alternatives we'd tried had helped for a while, but I had again returned to my depression. These included dietary changes, no dairy, no sugar; various herbs, supplements, aminos,chi gong and accupuncture. He felt badly that I was suffering such extreme depression.

Oddly enough, that motivated me, and I started doing a lot of things, including my wall squats daily(chi gong) as well as a liverflush. I also found Curezone! And your forum and book.

The depression broke about 4 weeks later. I attribute it to everything I was doing -including taking a break from almost all the supplements, herbs, and aminos I was taking. I'd never considered they might be taxing my liver. I was doing a lot of good things. It was three days after my first liver flush that the depression cleared--it was like I'd stepped into a different world. My doctor is tickled, although he attributes it to the chi gong, and I to the liver flush. Probably both.


Heres the problem. Just preceding the break of the depression and since then I've had a bad case of insomnia. (The doctor offered me Lunestra, and then laughed.) He has confidence I'll figure it out. At first the insomnia was mild,giving up 3 hours of sleep a night, then I panicked because this has happened many times over the last 11 years, and the panic didn't help. I went to sleeping only 2-3 hours a night. With the stress of a family, that little of sleep doesn’t seem to allow me to function well, and honestly, my body hurts. Pain is a great teacher. ouch

I’ve tried to disengage from the fear that the insomnia will throw me BACK into depression. I continued with my second liver flush along with my first colonic (felt great) and Thursday, three weeks later, I did my third flush and another professional colonic.

The flush didn’t deliver any gallstones. I slept for 4 hours (great for me) and stayed in bed till morning. I did a salt water flush first thing in the morning (epson salts would have kept me home) and I headed with great hope, to the colonic--
but the colonic was a DISASTER.

The colonic session: SEVERE cramping, followed by extreme chills and shivering, more cramping; each time the therapist would relieve the cramps, then they would come again. She was very reassuring; said each session was different and that I hadn’t done anything “wrong”, but I still have a tender colon, gas, bloating, and miscellaneous body pains--and I'm not too anxious to do THAT again.

I think I am a vatta/kapha, although I vaguely remember takig the test many years ago and coming out all three. Regardless, right now with your test, I tested Vatta dominant with Kapha just two points different. I haven't read everything yet.

Even with all the body pains. weakness, eye problems, etc. from the insomnia (talk about increasing empathy) I am GRATEFUL that I’m not depressed. I just don’t want to weaken myself so much that my body resorts to the depression to recuperate from lack of sleep.

I feel impressed my colon(digestive system) is a major issue, but the sleep thing is very troubling.

The good news! After the first and second flush I had severe kidney pain, started the kidney tea, no kidney pain after this flush. That's good.


Questions:
1) Keep flushing?
2) What happened at the colonic?
3) What about the insomnia?
4) Where do I go from here?


Thanks so much for what you do.