don't know how to solve my situation

I'm really stuck. Don't know what to do now. I have so many emotional problems with other people , my brother , my mother and father. Everything is so strange for me. My father is an alcoholic. My parents got divorced 2 years ago but i think i still feal awful. I'm so angry. I feel guilty and evil inside. I hate my brother. I've got also very strange relationiship with mother. I think she doesn't like me at all. Andreas i really don't know what to do. I would like to call for sacred santemony but now i just don't want to take another money from my mother. I feel very bad about myself (maybe i even hate myself). Someone told me that my throat chakra is very blocked. Could You give me maybe some hints that can help me in some way? I feel that i did something terrible maybe in this life (especially to my brother) or some past one. I've got also some health problems too. But i think it's from fear stress and other emotions. I feel that i'm full of this low emotions. Tweet