Spiritual attack?

I've been having the hardest time controlling my eating habits and it leaves me hating myself everynight! I never had this problem before, but now that I KNOW what is good and bad for my body I find myself unable to eat right and have literally been bingeing on bad foods! Is anyone else going through this or gone through it? What the heck is wrong with me? I know it's not physical (well it may play a part) but I really think it's emotional/spiritual and I just can't get out of it. I'm literally killing myself and sabotageing all of my efforts to be well (or at least I feel like I am). I can't even get through one day! It's so pathetic! My husband just bought me an awesome new juicer for Christmas and I've barely used it. It's like I can't motivate myself. I always seem to have negative thoughts about my health now, like this could be wrong or that could be wrong and I have to do this and that, etc. It's ruling my life pretty much and that's no way to live. If I don't have at least one bowel movement per day it messes up my whole day. I get in a bad mood and get irritated with my body for not functioning properly (I guess it would if I gave it what it needed!). But still. I think I'm stuck in a self-destructive mindset and don't know how to get out of it. I need help.

Nicole
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