i'm sorry you had to go through all your neighbors' negative talk. maybe they don't really mean what they're saying. maybe they do, but dont know how it affects you. i dunno. just don't pay attention to it, if that's what makes you cut. i don't know. i'm a cutter myself. well, actually i decided to stop cutting, but sometimes i scratch myself really hard. maybe we can work through this together. i'm not sure how much i can help you, but at least we both know we're not alone. have you told anyone else about your cutting problem? how old are you?