Why you cut

Many people missinterpret what this really is. It's an addiction to "adrenaline" it's a connection to the misery that we like to romanticize in our lives.

This sounds pretty harsh but it is a harsh reality. One that I myself had to overcome.

A simple way to explain it is that usually a person does not do this if they are happy. Usually it's happening during times of "depression". Some poeple drink during these times, others do drugs, others write self loathing poetry and still others cut or mutilate their own bodies. It forms itself into a habitual addiction.

Depression is a warm cloak that pulls itself around it's vicitm. Eventually if you've been wearing this cloak long enough you resist removing it. Why?? Well you don't feel as if you can "feel" anything other than it. Being deeply depressed is a great and powerful feeling. It sends a full force emotion over your body that in it's own way is almost euphoric. It's why poeple fight about things that have no need to be fought about..they are addicted to the adrenaline recieved by creating anger.It's why young girls cry themselves silly over lost boyfriends and write overly sappy poetry. Depression is heavy and it feels nice and warm. Especially to those who've never had much "love" in thier lives. If all you've really ever felt in your life is emotional pain then how can you really know what love truly feels like? If you continue to put yourself in bad situations in life you have most likely not experienced a feeling of self worth or Love. Cutting usually does not follow those who have had a fullfilling life of great love.

We all need to start getting serious with ourselves. After the age of 18 you start to take control of who you actually are. The patterns and issues in our life after that time are of our own creation. We need to think about why we would continue to inflict pain upon ourselves? It's a twisted reality when you acutally start to see that you are enjoying the pain you inflict. That it get's you high. The way to combat it is to realize it is nothing more than just a habit or an addiction. It's combatable but you must open yourself up to the reality of what it really is first.

The past is the past bringing it into the present is holding onto pain for the sake of holding onto pain. That is where the "phsycology" comes in. Not realizing that you are creating a neurosis in yourself that can be removed easily.

The thing about addications is that even if you're not in the state of Depression that created it they can rear their ugly heads by falling into habitual patterns. Adrenaline is crazy

Start to get logical. Watch your desire to fall into depression or to have an illogical argument or self loathing moment. Life is abundant with beauty and "real" turmoil everyday. Children in Africa are being forced to kill freinds as they have been kidnapped and forced into a militant army. That is not your life...your life is pretty good.


The past is the past..leave it there. Even if the past was just 15 minutes ago.

Liss

btw..I've had self mutilation issues since I was 3 years old.(i'm 28 now) It used to happen in my sleep. Once I started to get real with myself and to turn toward the simple abundance of love it all changed. In all those years I only had a 2 year break. I've been free for 2 years. It was after I stopped the stress in my life..another favorite addiction.