I was thinking I should write a short testimony of what is going on with my life.

 As some of you know, I have had many troubles this past two years.  

Approximately in March, I began praying for deliverance, with some help from my new church.

Now I can see how angry I was, I had bitterness and resentment in my heart, but in some way I had buried those feelings deeply, so I was not able to see clearly.  

I have been working on that, through forgiveness,  and little by little my anger has been lifting from my heart. The first time I try to forgive, it seemed impossible; I felt the hurt was too big. But by faith I forgave and suddenly the process began and now I can say I have forgiven several people with my heart. I do not feel any hurt or bitterness toward them.

But I still was feeling that there was something wrong. I prayed and prayed until it was revealed to me that I also needed to apologize and try to repair some damage I have done. This seems so obvious now, but the problem was that I always saw myself as a victim, and never considered the consequences of my actions or the need to recognize my responsibility for some disagreements, misunderstandings or arguments I had.

 So, I have been sending some letters and e-mails with apologies. On Monday, I sent an e-mail to an old friend of mine, and after that, I felt such a relief. I felt like something was lifting, literally, from my shoulders. 

 I wanted to find this teaching in the Bible and I see it is clear Jesus told us to do that. I think now that forgiving, is important of our personal spiritual well being; and apologies are important for others, because they also can forgive if we facilitate the process, and receive healing. 

 Matthew 5

 ²³"Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, ²⁴leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.