Karlin,
I do so hope that you are able to get off this morphine. I used to do drugs and drank like a fish..I am alcoholic and addict both. I did not do any downers, simply because I did not like them. I wish you the best and hope you are able to move forard into recovery. 12 step programs saved my life.
You can even go to the meetings just to listen...even when you are using.