Give yourself a break! LOL Don't beat yourself up like that. You are under heavy duty stress. I don't think anyone who claims to be 100% raw vegan/vegetarian is so continuously. We are all human do fail. We are fallen creation and sometimes screw up. I am also transitioning to raw. Get Paul Nison's books, Raw Life, Raw Knowledge 1 and 2. He has collected the best stories about going raw to inspire you.