I have tried to give an answer to all your questions and I await your views to all of my questions and views. I will not attack you. I feel that when a person attacks it is a reflection of something that needs to be healed within themselves. In many cases it can be a deep insecurity.
I think many people here may have a complex to the name "god" due to the attrocities they have seen committed attached to this name. "god" can mean many things. No one dogmatic religion has the monopoly on this name. To me "god" is interchangeable to "universe" or "all that is." To me "god" is not a person but a collection of everything.
COnversations with god by Neal Walshe is kind of what I resonate with. Not exatly the insecure, wrathful, vengeful persona that some people have collectively projected as god. I believe that people tend to project in their god what exists in their consciousness...an outcropping of their inner world if you will.