My trouble with alcohol

My trouble with quitting drinking is we live on the water. Everyone is always drinking around here. The local Moose Lodge is so close and everyone congregates there in the winter. Summers we are always out boating or on the islands. You just can't get away from it. I quit for a while and they here is everyone again. On my very street. slamming beers and having a great time.
What I don't like about my drinking is...
1) Bruises. I get so bruised up like someone hit me with a baseball bat. I imagine a lot of it is from either falling down or walking into things to hard and because of the amount I drink my blood is thin. I am talking massive softball size bruises all over me. We call them party mystery bruises.
2) Loss of memory- I am sure I had a great time but more often then not I don't remember the great sex with my husband or the things that happened or went on. I will run into people that know me and I have no idea who they are. I have the same conversations with people over and over and they are looking at me like I am rude for not listening at all. Sucks..
3) My big mouth- I tend to run my mouth about things I should not say, ever let alone when I am drunk. Not mean but like secrets that you just dont share with people.
4) Smoking- I must smoke like 3 or 4 packs when I drink. Normally I don't smoke at all but when the weekend comes and I get lit up man oh man do I smoke like a chimney. Then my lungs feel like crap for 2 days.
5) Hangovers- I find it almost impossible to sleep it off and when I drank the night before I almost always get up at the crack of dawn, unless i stayed up til crack of dawn and just stay awake. The booze wears off and I feel like I was hit by a truck for the next 2 whole days... UG!
6) The crappy things I do- I swear every crappy thing i have ever done has been when I was drunk. I can't believe some of the things I have done.. Somehow it seems like a good idea at the time.. Or I won't remember what I did but have that bad feeling in myu stomach like uh oh I bet I was real bad...

I am one of those people who can drink a couple beers and then just stop or it doesn't taste good and I don't want it. But then I have those days where it tastes great, and goes down like water and before I know it I am shit faced...

Anyway thats my 2 cents

Nikki
Michigan

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