day 8

hello. this is the 4th mc i have done. last one was in sep and i quit after day 9. anyway, i was so toxic and depressed and I was binge eating and drinking up until new years eve so come new years day I wanted to start on a clean slate, and stay this way. yesterday was great. today i woke up tired and sad.. i have been in bed all day, really lethargic and really really hungry... i just had the most vivid detailed dream about food.. it was intense. anyway, i am trying to clear my mind , body, and spirit of some negative things, and some not so great things and habits I have fallen back into so this is a good time for me to do this but dang, it's hard. haha. and i work in a restaraunt. my neck and back have been hurting really badly.
i had a swollen gum though and my whole mouth ached and today i noticed it was gone. could be the mc having healed it, could just be not chewing on it..
i am def going ten days. maybe longer, i will play it by ear.
i am just really hungry is all ( right now)
not sure why..

i have not been exercising as much on this mc as I normally do... i think that is ok..
i have been getting a lot of slack about how unhealthy this is et al... i don't know, i think everyone has their opionions and thinks they know what is best. I am also doing this fo rspirtitual and mental reasons...
what else? well, earlier in the week to give me a double whammy , on top of detoxing, i got my period and was an emaotional trainwreck. i wa srelieved to realize most of that was pms.. i suffer biiiiig time.
this mc has been interesting... some highs, some lows, i have probably done it too much. this is my fourth since last jan , but i have heard you can do it once a season. i wont do it again until next year. but i NEEDED IT RIGHT NOW... i don't want to harm myself but i just felt i had to get rid of some old garbage, physical and mental. if y'all knew how bad i had been eating and drinking since november, and even before... anyway,
good luck.
i rambled...

oh yea, one more thing... i am not drinking enough water... my god, i barely have had any in the last two days.. i know this is not good..... i have to force myself....