One Bad Trip on Cannabis destroyed my life - how can I recover?

Hi,

In 2012 I smoked weed for the first time in my life. I had a nightmarish bad trip. It lasted about 2-4 hours. I Landed in the hospital. They gave me something that ended the trip within 15 minutes. Since then my body stopped working properly. I fell in a depression. I lost 10kg weight and cant gain it anymore. My pancreas stopped producing digestive enzymes. I have the feeling my other organs also do not work properly. My digestion got messed up. My brain got messed up. I have several food allergies . Histamine Intolerance . Leaky gut. Candida. Autoimmune reactions.

I´ve seen so many doctors, took so many supplements and medicine. I tried trauma therapies like EFT, EMDR etc. Nothing seems to help. Especially mentally is horrible. I lost my identity. I don´t know who I am. Every day is a reset for me. It feels like I got reborn every day. Like yesterday never happened. Every day I start with anxiety and have to go through hell to develop temporary confidence in social situations. I go through my fears. The next day it starts from zero. Like a reset. I have pretty much no memory. I almost don´t remember what I did or what I ate yesterday. I was 30 years old when it started. Now I am 38 and still suffering from all this.

I did some research lastly and found out that it might be some problems with dopamine/serotonin. Especially dopamine. So I wonder, is it possible that this bad trip damaged my receptors? My brain? What else could it be? How can I recover? Tweet