Confused, lost. Lashing out at others, as you have tried, gets you nothing, as you by now realize. You can spend another 5, 10 , 100 or a million hours on this website, and you will remain in the same place. Question is, can you break out of the spell that keeps you here ? That devil that just loves you doing nothing of any importance, can you break free from it ? It loves it, owning you to only restrict your power to a nothingness website which it owns, and by extension, owns you. You are free to be free whenever you choose, just click the ruby slippers you always had, the whole time, and don't look back, when you get that thought that finally frees you of it