I've genuinely never seen so much delusion in a single post anywhere on the internet, and I've been on a forum specifically for people seeking assistance for delusions.
All religious belief and alien abduction experiences is caused by the chemical DMT. None of it is real, it's all in your head, the voice of God has been PROVEN repeatedly to be your own internal subvocalizations. Read a book that isn't in line with your delusion, expose yourself to conflicting ideas, and think critically. Reality is concrete, knowable, and impossible to argue with.