What to do?

Hello people. It's been quite a while that I have not expressed my emotions to anybody. My family and companions are worn out on imparting my sentiments to them. I can also not take it excessively and I have to talk about my issues with individuals, so I can diminish the weight on me. That is the reason this time I have chosen to go for this gathering. I trust anybody isn't disturbed here with my story. I have for the longest time been itching to have my own children. Before I was hitched I used to play with others kids and loved them. My husband and I have a great deal of things in like manner and having our children is one of them. In any case, life had something unique for me that I can't turn into a mother. It's very strange that I am an entire lady and still I can't have infant. Abnormal however genuine. Since, I have a heart disease which influences the blood to move inverse way in the heart. This ailment will never enable me to have a child in light of the fact that in the event that I do, so I have higher odds of biting the dust. At the point when my better half came to know about my disease he was truly disturbed and somewhat irate with me. Later on he understood that it isn't my blame. So he chose to quit contemplating having kids as my life is his first need. I am fortunate and unfortunate in the meantime. He has abandoned having children however I have been searching for different alternatives. The most I have known about is surrogacy. I know a little about it so mercifully give me any information identified with it, for example, do I need to locate the surrogate mother? Is it costly? Is it safe? I will have the capacity to persuade my better half after I find solutions to my inquiries. Fare thee well.