Sounds like TMAU or possibly even leaky gut or candida. It seems on this thread most people have TMAU so I know they would have some great advice for you, at least as a starting point until you find what works best for yourself. I do not have TMAU but I do have uncontrollable (extremely potent) Body Odor so I do understand how you feel about not belonging. Whenever I hear about someone dying in a car crash or some freak accident I'm jealous it wasn't me. what kind of life are we expected to have when we physically cant be in a 5 foot radius of anyone else? no concerts, clubs, dancing, bars, museums, nothing enjoyable.....its torture. The people on this site do have really good info about TMAU if that is what you are suffering from so I know you will improve with their advice. I wish I knew someone where I lived with this affliction so I wouldn't feel so alone.