Accused of rape, then raped years later because of it.

I was accused of raping an African American girl while living in a predominantly black neighbor and attending a middle school where I was quite literally the only white student. everyone involved in my prosecution was black.

This is important because I ended up in juvie and a mental hospital where I suffered genital mutilation. which is important because...

When I was in college I was drugged and raped by a school mental health counselor who knew about my past, and knew about the severity of the injuries to my penis.

When I woke up from the drugged stupor I had that familiar sharp stabbing pain of having had a sustained erection and reaching c1imax. I also had a condom DRIED onto my penis, that I had to go to the ER to have removed.

This staff member was charged with 'unlawful sexual contact' nothing more. she paid a $400 fine and I had a restraining order placed against me to keep me off campus. the school refused to refund my tuition despite the fact I had only been in classes for three months of the 4 years my bank had paid for.

When I tell my story I get this response.

"You are a f***ing liar. Go kill yourself, men cant be raped because you all enjoy it, that's what an erection means"

I also get "You are a racist white men never go to jail for raping black women"

and of course "You must have imagined since you are schizophrenic"

My schizophrenia was CAUSED by the emotional trauma I went through.

I am trying to find someone to talk to because my therapist doesn't believe me, my family thinks its all in my head thanks to the doctors at the mental hospital and I tried to kill myself an hour ago. I failed obviously though my arm hurts and I am probably going to need stitches...