That's really sad to read as I can totally relate. In these past 5 years of ec I've experienced major Depression & had many times thought about committing suicide because it seemed like "the only way out" of this horrible nightmare. There were nights I've literally cried myself to sleep because of Depression wishing I'd never wake up again and as a man in my 20's I'm not ashamed to admit it. Not only does this affect you physically but mentally too in every way that you neglect everything else in your life like you just don't care about anything anymore. "What's the point of being alive?" I ask myself constantly.
I'm sorry for this guys but after reading that post, I felt like I needed to get that off my chest.