I'm new to the web an like I said in my forum I never knew there's so many people curst with this aura cause in our world we seem to be the only one,an don't be sorry for expressing your deepest thoughts,that's why sites like this are created for people like us who are living in a dark place from within while all the while trying to keep a smile when faced with the world, u see your thoughts expressed are also my thoughts depressed,this site allows us to express with hope of success because who can understand better than we who are afflicted by this dreadful horrible an shameful curse in a world that is cruel to those who don't meet it's standards,when those friends an family members an even the 7 doctor that u spoke about who do not believe an thought as if it was a joke they say they smell nothing then turn around a crack a joke. U just keep expressing yourself while clinging on to hope I just want u to know one thing I'm in the same boat, your not alone We just seem to be lost at sea like cast away