Please help me I am desperate!!

I need help from this wonderful community here. I am a desperate single mom of 4 at the end of her rope. If I don't get this under control now, I will only continue to deteriorate.

I don't even know where to start. I guess I should set the scene here and say that being a newly single mom who also just started a new job not two months ago, I do not exactly have the option of going to all the doctor appointments they want me to. I work Monday through Friday normal business hours and I can not take a day off to get this done. My doctor wants me to see an endocrinologist, dermatologist, and psychiatrist. It's just not possible right now. Yet something needs to be done before the damage is irreversible.

Let me start with my physical symptoms...

Two nodules on my thyroid
Excessive facial hair
Hives
Loss of pigment of skin in random places
Weight gain
Inability to lose weight
Blurry vision that fluctuates
Excessive Sweating
Sensitivity to hot and cold
Tingling in hands and feet
Ovarian cysts

Mental symptoms...

Anxiety
Depression
Panic attacks
Fatigue
Bursts of energy
Forgetfulness
Not motivated on minute then excited the next
Night eating (I will wake up finding myself eating in the middle of the night quite often. At least 4-5 nights a week.)

I am probably forgetting a few things I'm sure. I've been to the doctors in the past and they of course take my blood and run a bunch of tests. Every single time it is normal. Every aspect is normal. Thyroid they say is normal. It doesn't make sense. All my vitamin levels are normal. They say according to my blood work I am very healthy. I say look at me, how could that be?? I am overweight, and mostly in my stomach. People ask me if I am pregnant all the time. I have also been tested for diabetes and a number of other things. Nothing. I'm "normal".

I also try to pay attention to what I eat and make sure I get exercise. I incorporate as many raw foods into my diet as I can and hit the gym at least 3 times a week for over an hour each time. Yet I look like I don't take care of myself at all. My body is out of control. They want to send me to the endocrinologist but I don't want surgery or pills. I want to be better. If they take my thyroid out then I will have no choice but to take hormone supplements. How can I heal myself? What can I do?

It has to be something I do at home because like I said, I am a single mom of 4 and can not take any time off of work. If I lose my job I will lose what little I do have for my kids.

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