the interview with real God?

mind blowing consciousness in a body formation visible complete with a vibration that is its energy coming into the being before the thought that collapse the waves into man-made fear or sine sin waves, the fall invented by duality/division (i have you not, I am you not, I security you enemy, I have food you not, I live you not, or I go in comfort/heaven/grace/favor and you not - all this in the mind of men as inner world, not God world at all) a pure wave of life that is desiring stimulation satisfying and the work formation and consciousness of that in the same time leaving no projection of men thoughts in a space where men have theirs for a consciousness just invented for the lie of that hell of you my enemy, evil human animal dangerous for the herd, so no trusting in you, son of God, I make myself security before you do it before me and I make myself enemy to you, and so on you lest I poor you poor and i rich, lest I am stupid and low you down and i hight. who is the snake? I, right and you my god the center or black hole. where really we do live? good ??????
I love interconnection and love to see it, may be tomorrow it comes, god would promise you but never now always in the future. smile you have my vote to the Satan, thoughts evil possession for power/fear/deprivation/dying-for-luck of life and no God at all. God is death. right.
we have to wake up for life sake or you and me death - perdition. I do not know if you understand my this input. it is my best so far.
I am learning from my insight to understand the big picture of life. very vital. and easy to become if there is true will. no deception of symbolic things to power one side good as money and other idols so with this one is proud and appearing like false attraction and in the heart there is that Fuuuuuuucking you.
the truth and more... so Is this religion so called and so we have to force it before our eyes because there is another religion like enemy or group or party opposition. who it the right, fighting to win, is it for life or ....one side inside a rot of a mind and never see unless it is our creation. perfect, oh yea. I am waiting to be healed. and they are waiting how to exploit the one in need of this. the hole is too good.
I asked a priest student who had book, the holy, and i ask him what is that holy. he said that is a hole and has pleasure. was it a joke. the black hole...incredible people nowadays.