Body odor
I think I have a
Body Odor that other people can smell but I can only smell it if I come into a room and stay there for a while with the door closed and then walk into another room and walk back into the room I was in before. I can smell it when I get out the car and the wind blows.
This all started a few months ago when I found out that my boyfriend was bi-sexual, and I broke up with him. I spoke to some of my friends about it, but in return they turned out not to be true friends and they started to slander my name at school and tell people that I have HIV, tell people that I smell bad, and people have even came up to me and telling me "yea I know you go it".
They have thrown things at me and they even talk about me while I'm in the room and say things like I could never forgive someone for doing that, she's so strong, and they've said I like to be in a funky mood too sometimes.
One day I was upset because my mom is sick and I ran out the room to the bathroom and started to cry and when I got back into class someone texted me with emojis of me running out the door crying while I was in class. I was really hurt by that because they don't even know why I was upset.
Even some of my ex-boyfriends friends have said yea you got it because he got it from me and I wouldn't even be talking to them, they would just come out and say this. I've been so miserable for the past months. Ive always been a nice, kind and giving person to people. I've went to the doctor and got tested twice and all results came back negative and I even asked my doctor and my nurse if I smelled funny to them and my doctor told me its all psychological, that I was healthy and that I didn't smell bad.
I've asked close friends and they have said the same thing that I don't smell funny to them and that I'm letting these people drive me crazy. I feel like something is wrong because people hold there nose around me or even turn their head in the other direction. I've been doing a lot of reading on the Internet and I notice signs were people will rub their eyes, hold their nose, or breath in their mouth, people sneeze a lot or sniffle and also cough.
No one wants to sit next to me anymore or they but their hand over their nose when they talk to me. I don't know what to do. I went to see another doctor yesterday to get another test done, and I told her what was going on and she said that kind of disease doesn't make you smell or your breath smell. I'm currently waiting on those results. That doctor wants me to go see a psychologist because I have anxiety and depression. But people outside of school that I haven't told or asked if I smell, they will be right in my face talking to me.
Then some people out of school just stare at me and I've became very paranoid about that I don't go out with my friends anymore, I don't go to restaurants, get my hair done, or my nails, I don't like the mall. I just feel like everyone knows my predicament and talks about me. One person I confided in told me that I think I'm all that because I think that people are always talking about me, when there not. So even some of the people around me are bringing me down. I just don't know who to trust anymore and who's telling me the truth or not. I don't have any brothers or sisters, it's just me and my mom and she can't smell it because she has sinus congestion problems.
So the one person I can really trust with this can't smell at all. My mom has told me to just keep going to class and ignore it but it's hard, I ask God to protect me and to give me strength. One of my very close guy friends told me he would tell me if I smelled bad and he said he wouldn't be trying to get with me if I smelled.
I can even hear my roommates friends when they come in say what is that smell and they call me a thot (hoe) and my roommate has even walked pass my room and said that I will never get rid of that smell. I'm trying to stay positive and pray but this is really bringing me down. I just want to get my life back to when I didn't care about what people thought or said about me. Please help me! I'm losing my mind!