Posting information is not an embarrassment. You got a problem. You can keep it to yourself. There is no acceptance to what you are attempting to blow out of your system. Try beating your head against a brick wall. You may get better results.
I got a good feeling that the finger she is giving to someone in that video is meant for you. Cuz, you know what? At least she is doing her own research on the subject. And what are you doing except pissing & moaning about what people are about in attempting to expose the corruption that is running like a plague through the upper tier of this country - from sea to shining sea. The same goes for Jim Fetzer & what he's about.
Go bark at a tree. You'll get better results, imo.