I am glad you are at least happy. Sorry I can't take you more serious after checking a lot of your posts. Even your regular ID sounds like cynic. //www.curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1957030
Dquixote gave you good advice and that is 20 months ago.
You could consider going to AA to get help with your alcohol
problem and meet different people.
Most of us don't get support from people around us, it is a lonesome journey but we still keep going. If I am sick I never tell people around me and try to solve it myself with
help from CZ and the internet in general.