Franky. The parasites make you think like this. I started to get very depressed and see no point to living and take no pleasure in life when I was at my worst infection. When you start to get rid of them your thinking and mood improves greatly. You are very toxic right now. Have patience with yourself and try to keep as comfortable as possible. If it means sitting in the bath every hour do that. Get lots of garlic and put a clove up there to keep them from driving you insane and keep one there. You cant get rid of them if they keep coming out to lay more eggs. Eat lots of Papaya as well as the seeds and rinds. Eat lots of pineapple, shredded coconut and carrot.. These are affordable things that help alot. It just takes time. They can live for 13 weeks. If you can prevent reinfection from swallowing the eggs you can get rid of them in a few months. you have to get the eggs out of the environment. Clean everything with bathroom cleaner or bleach and spray with lysol if you can get that.