Please help me--Dr says I probably have glaucoma--need advice--scared

I have an appointment in 3 weeks with a glaucoma specialist. My mother had glaucoma and went nearly blind.

I was told my pressure is high and my peripheral vision tests showed in parts of the eye, I did not see the lights consistently in the same place in 2 separate tests 6 months apart and thus told me I need to see the specialist. Prior to that I was once told I had it and then doctor (a different doctor) said h did not know. went to a specialist maybe a few years ago and they said I did not have glaucoma then but did have ocular hypertension which may or may not lead to glaucoma.

I am very adverse to taking any drugs or drugs to the eye.

I am not as adverse to surgery but don't know a lot about it. I want to use Dr Schulze's eye program which consists of the eyewash several times a ay in the eye and internally, brain herbs like cayenne, gingko and rosemary, a slant board once or twice a day and 3 cups of carrot juice.

I have been planning on going on a 75 say juice fast along with incurables save your life program ending with 10 to 14 days on the grape cure also doing master cleanse for at least a week or two of the juice fast.

What I am worried about is can the eyewash be used in the eyes if one does the surgery when they open hole/s in eye to drain the fluid and thus reduce the pressure as maybe the eyeballs will not be watertight like they are before the surgery or maybe this might close the holes as I saw this sometimes happen even without this program.

Because there i almost no chance I will take the eyedrops/meds, I do not want the eyes to get worst as it is said to be irreversible.

I am not sure if insurance will pay for surgery if I do not do eyedrops first as they did this with another health thing and thus I could not get help as could not afford the surgery myself and would not do the preliminary treatment as thought it would harm me.

But if they do cover it not sure if I should wait to see if this natural program helped or not as my eyes may get worst and not sure how quick one loses vision yet, but if I get the surgery maybe I will not be able to do the eyewash (which contains cayenne) due to how they changed my eyes from  normal via surgery.

If I went blind I think I would kill myself as already very depressed for decades and this might be something I could not live without (vision) as noone to help me, would not go to assisted living as I seem to piss everyone off and am very divergent and don't fit in as too much mind of my own and live to read, help others and love nature plus need to drive so not sure what course to take..since I am so adverse to drugs. I tried some eye drops Dr recommended for other problems and it hurt my eyes and made them irritated all the time so quit it and eye now don't hurt.

Please help me. I have helped several thousand people who were sick with my knowledge o alternative health and if I can't see will not be able to do this. Now I need help.  I have out of control diabetes and that is why I was going to do this program and that may also be affecting eyes.

Please tell me what you think and if I could still do and have it be effective the Dr Schulze eye program after such a surgery or if the alteration to the eye changes everything.

also what other things might help this disease.
go bless you and thank you for any direction or help or adivce you can give me.